hello again. i know ive neglected this for a bit, but ive been busy going out and spending all my money on alcohol. I've come to a time where maybe i should stop drinking so much and maybe start focussing on my career in the future. I've decided now, that i am determined to open a shop when im older. With or without the aide of my brother, who recently told me he wanted to open a males clothing shop and if i ever created shoes, i could if i paid him stock his shop with my mens line of footwear. How kind of him, i know. However ive started to really think about it all, and i really like the idea of being a buyer for a magazine at the early stages of my career.
So here goes to actually getting my act together and trying to find someone willing to trust me enough to let me do this for them. Or even just let me observe whilst someone more experienced takes the reins. Either way, its what i am craving to do as i sit in the childrens shop i work in, watching the world go by. Everyone else seems to be moving forward with their life, whereas i am stood still. Failing to move on after the last couple of years. As a lot of my close friends know, i went through like four years of operations, and like me they thought id be a hell of a lot happier afterwards. Which i am. I am happy with who i am as a person, just not with what im doing with my life.
I live in the serious hope that if i do go to DMU (de montfort university) that maybe this will kick start my real passion, because it is in there raring to get out and explore the creative path i want to go down. But i guess winchester isn't really as creative as it thinks it is. Yeah it has the beautiful architecture and the history. But where is the passion, the drive and the CULTURE. This place has been my home for ten years and the culture has been the one thing this place has lacked since day one. Maybe its just the fact i come from london and that place is buzzing from it, but there isnt anything out of the ordinary in a creative sense. Everything is mundane and similar. So until leicester i shall create, a somewhat creative streak in myself, on myself maybe? and to stop me from ever becoming a mundane wintonian i shall adorn myself with ink tattoos. Therefore no one will ever be the same as me. I shall then also be restricted from an office or ordinary job.
Rant over. Have a nice day chickaaas.
